|my favorite chef, nicolas|
so while i started off reaching for distinction, practicing and studying, soon learned that it was near impossible for a basic student to get in the 90th percentile as we're graded at a professional level. so then it was shooting for mention bien (80th percentile) which is where i teetered at mid-term. all i had to do was execute with the same consistency at the final...and sadly, i didn't. i knew when i left the final, having prepared the exam recipe, where i messed up. i know of one student that scored mention bien. i passed, without special mention, but with a solid score.
disappointed? yes. i went shopping. very disappointed with myself, mulling over how i could have done better. having mourned and slightly consoled with my new clothes, i felt better knowing my perseverance doesn't stop here. some girls were very upset with their score - unfair scoring process, lack of transparency, collapsing under the pressure. it was particularly hard for those defined by a score. high scores are definitely no small feat but do they sufficient to define oneself, especially for a lifetime?
i'd like to think that attitude and outlook have value, too. for my part, i am defined by my experiences and my reaction to results and outcomes.